I can't stop crying, I've been laying in my bed for the last 3 hours unable to breath. If you were to ask me what was wrong, I couldn't tell you. There isn't anything wrong.... Yes i have a few fears, that's to be expected, and they aren't big enough to cry over. Yes I am going to miss my friends and family, but honestly i have gotten all that crying out of my system, and I am ready for this adventure. I am so ready to go, my bags are packed and I am literally counting down the hours until I leave! I am so ready for this experience!
So why am I cured up in my bed, bawling? I remember the hour before I left the house last year, I crawled up on the couch and just began to cry... just like now I couldn't explain what was happening, I just knew i needed to cry. It lasted all but about 10 minutes, I wiped my eyes, fixed my make up, and walked out the door!
Could it be the holy spirit, preparing me for what I am about to go through. Could it be the lord, moving in my heart, getting me ready for what he has in store for my life? Yes I believe that is it! If this is just a gimps of what God has in store for me this summer, then i cant wait to write my blog when I get home! :)
4 more days!!
